The time has come for this IVF cycle to use the famous words heard at the end of Disney cartoons – “That’s all folks”! My cycle kicked in with a bad-ass-punch-in-the-stomach attitude this weekend, so that calls an end to our 1st attempt at IVF. The obvious question to follow, that seems to be on the lips of all those near and dear to us, is what’s next? Will we give IVF another go? Will we let go of trying now?
And the answer remains as clear as mud – aaarrrgggghhhh! I know, it drives us crazy too. We’re not entirely sure what comes next. We’ve been praying ever since that awful day, last Monday, when we got our negative pregnancy test results and still don’t have an answer. What it really all boils down to is … money! I think I have enough strength in me to give IVF another go, however we do not have the money for it. So far the costs have been over 60K, another round would cost us 50K. We have about a 5th of that in savings. If we manage to find the remaining finds, sure, we would give it another go.
The other thing that plagues us is that time is not on our side. As mentioned in a previous post, my ovaries are failing and I am running out of eggs. So, we would need to move fast for another go.
What we are doing now is watching (as the Lord told us to do) and waiting. If He provides the money we will definitely go for it. If not, then it’s life as per normal in the McDowell household – “Darby and Joan” and the 5 furry babies (our 3 dogs and 2 cats). If only we could do a Richard Branson (aka: “Screw it let’s do it” – good book by the way).
We will have to make an appointment to see the Doc this week to hear what his ideas are with regards to why this round failed. I am not sure he will be able to say why exactly it didn’t work but it will be good to know either way.
This is not the end of meetingmolly though. There is a lot still to digest and discuss. And perhaps, just maybe, there are more miracles to come.
With God nothing is ever impossible and no word from God shall be without power or impossible of fulfillment. Luke 1: 37.