During our morning readings today this was at the top of the page:
“Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your minds, so that you may discern the will of God” Romans 12: 2
How we needed this right now, how desperately we want to discern God’s will for us going forward! We are not entirely sure which way to go next. We have prayed and prayed for guidance with seemingly no answer.
I am an action kinda gal. Gary is a ponderous and patient kinda guy, so naturally I have been tearing my hair out with the fact that he is waiting and thinking and not taking things in a new direction for us. Last night, I got down on my hands and knees, face to the ground and asked God what I (Sian) should do – I believe I heard him say “wait”. Oh boy! I hope I was wrong as waiting is not one of my strengths. If God is telling me to wait, then I hope it is not a long wait!
We must point out that we do have a plan, we are just pondering and praying on whether to kick things up a notch and put the plan into action. However, the past few months (with the surrogacy and then IVF attempts) have been such a whirlwind and all happened so so so quickly. We think that maybe taking a little time out just to breath, think, talk and wait a little is what is required.
Either way, we know God has something exciting in store for us – he ALWAYS does! What we need right now is simply prayer for direction, scripture to inspire and strengthen us – and real wisdom for discerning His will.